Experience of week 10
At the beginning of the week I felt I was ‘spinning’, and I was not sure who I really was, I sort of lost that ‘self’ that made me me here, on planet Earth and I had a sense of oneness, as if I was sort of ‘universal’. I hope I am making sense. I had such lightness in me which was endless, much more free without ties. Then my few days off ended and I went back to work to the hospital and I got dragged back down to the temptation of judgements and negative feelings – nooooooooo!!!!! But I learned that it depends on me, I saw my surroundings in a much more positive way because I was in a much better place within myself. And I learned that it is a sort of a power that if I have a strong and courageous inner world, then I can make the outer world similarly positive, supportive and courageous!
Scroll 3 contains what I always needed: persistance. I always tended to ‘leave’ things after a while, even though I knew it would be of service to me. Persisting is a big thing for me. I think persisting and being able to focus goes hand in hand with each other. I have a lot to develop in this area. It was, however, so reassuring to read that “Each blow, of itself, may be trifling, and seem of no consequence. Yet from childish swipes the oak will eventually tumble.” To me it means I don’t have to be a ‘superman’ and it’s ok not to get something right immediately. The habit is what really counts, the aim, that I AM heading towards my goal because I AM persistant, and I won’t leave! Another thing comes hand in hand with persisting: “Knowledge will not apply itself. You must make the application.” So this is the ‘contents’, I am persistent by applying the knowledge – doing the exercises. This is a big lesson for me.